December 4, 2017
Eight days till Hanukah, seventeen days till Yule, twenty-one days till Christmas and twenty-two days till Kwanzaa and depression walked on my right side, while loneliness joined the left side as I ventured out to mail a package. Emerald green energy darting out of my third eye, and my crystal in my hand. I had it made. Social anxiety conquered again, and I’m out and about. Evening came and knocked me off my feet. This time depression and loneliness moved into my body. This pit swallowed me whole.
I’m fighting for my life. Not now, I screamed. I’m to teach the new way. Bring hope into the world. I failed. I can’t serve Divine Love doing this. Crash. Hit the floor. How do I climb out of this pit?
Reach out. We all have someone. It might not be our family. We all have someone, even if it is Ophra’s television shows or any other inspiring shows. Reach out. Stop your insanity. Share your feelings, but then build a bridge to rescue you.
The beginning of December took my breath away. I could rationalize it is because of the holidays and no family. That is what my ego would seek. It isn’t the truth. In this blog series, Surviving the Holidays or Not, I mentioned I am not. I am going beyond surviving. The beyond part was not to just exist again but become proactive in creating a new world for me. My tools are the ones these spirit guides taught me. How easy to forget, what we seek to change, will do a full body assault on us. Our ego does not request a change. It is run from a database and insists on playing the same record over and over. I had a four-day engagement with this process. It took my breath away. I stepped out of by pretending I was already living my new life. I invited a few close friends into messenger shared my heartbreak and then switched the dialogue. I had a cookie party. Small, simple, but it lifted up my spirit so it could take control
Visualizing and acting on it were the tools I used. As you are creating a different existence, do keep in mind that ego is going to smash you and win. It’s okay. Use these two tools and shift the energy so your spirit can drive.