December 9, 2017
Can’t you hear my scream? Can’t you help me? Yesterday, I realized my energy lived within those two questions. I knew this is building a surplus of similar energy for the following year. In fact, I am recreating the same situation. Stop this madness, Jasmine. I stopped the Merry-Go-Round and stepped off yesterday. I grabbed paper and a pen, and sat down to it create a blueprint on how exactly I am going to change my life, so I can move beyond surviving. My first question was to decipher what worked and what didn’t. Then, I needed to see where I spent my energy in this past year, as well as prior years. As a rule, I tend to dive into something, believing it will change, or I can magically fix it. To discover the answer, I entered my sacred space and asked Spirit for assistance. I already knew the answer, but I resisted it. Have you done the same thing? Look around and see where your energy is going, in hope to change something outside of you.
As I sat at my table, I realized my energy absorbed surviving. If I don’t switch this, next year will greet me again with the same vibration- surviving. I need to leap, which seems impossible, but my hunger pushed me out the door to accomplish this first step.
I refuse to spend another holiday season alone, with nobody to exchange presents or sit and have a meal. This way of living isn’t me. I adopted a different way of life that harmed me. I had to accept I did this. Nobody did this to me. As I inhaled, I also realized I’ve been waiting for someone to change this for me. Wrong! Wrong choice. It is me who enjoys this exchange of open house for people. I need to reinvent this. I’m going to start now.
Living the future at present is how one changes their reality.We begin with vision boards, I am statements and unplugging from cords that bind you to your situation are the tools. To free yourself, you must realize nobody is going to fix this, change it or sweep you off your feet to save you. Are you hungry enough to fight for yourself? Are you hungry enough to leap out of survival? Are you hungry enough to stop blaming the world, for your problem? If you answer yes, to these question, your next step is to tell yourself what life would be like if you chose to end surviving. Describe your vision, and write it down. What you now have in your hands is your rough draft of your blueprint. It will often change, as you begin to see life in a positive view, as you walk away from surviving.
I want to take a moment and give my thanks to those following my blogs. I am honored. A couple years ago, Divine Love intervene and saved my life. If you or someone you know is going through depression, and might be considering depression, you might wish to gift them my book. It is in paperback and digital. Thank you again for reading my blogs. I do hope they are offering you useable ideas. Jaz